i don't care what you think.

::redhere::

this post started off as quite the rant - but after further inspection, i'm attempting to tone it down.  maybe come up with a good metaphor for the way i'm feeling (but that would take some extra thought). let's just say, i'm in a mood.

i have always been one to make my own decisions. it's always been hard for me to learn from other people's mistakes because in my opinion, there are too many variables. (sometimes i think i don't reason the same way other people do). needless to say, the 'aries' in me is convinced that i make decisions just fine on my own (and good ones at that if i do say so myself. and i do). 

i hope that no one in particular takes offense to some of this, but honestly, i've grown awfully tired of everyone's opinions. (it's getting overwhelming).

i don't want your advice.

i get an inner "rolling of the eyes" feeling when you give me unsolicited advice. (especially when you ask, "you wanna know what i think?" and i bluntly say, "not really..." - but you tell me anways). call me rude, but i don't really much care what you think my next move should be. (it's times like these when i start typing slowly, because i'm not sure i should be feeling this way - the "not caring" kind of feelings, that is).

the fact of the matter is, i'm happy. i'm excited for my future. but sometimes when i tell people those two facts, it's like they don't believe me. they give me a side-glance and it's like they're trying to justify their own unhappiness by pushing it out on me - (that they're not that happy, thus no one else must be that happy, thus i can't possibly be that happy).

--OR--

i may, in fact, show happiness in a different way than you do. (shocking). my happiness many times shows itself in the form of a quiet afternoon. it doesn't mean i'm melancholy. it doesn't mean that i'm lonely. it doesn't even mean that i have nothing better to do. it mostly means exactly what it looks like - that i'm doing exactly what i want to be doing.




that being said, there are a few select people who can give me their opinion at any given moment and i will entertain it because they are who they are. people in whom i will never take offense at what they say. people who love me no matter what and believe what i say. people who keep my secrets and i keep theirs.

but to everyone else, let me say this: you want things for me that i don't want for myself. so (respectfully) keep your opinions to yourself.

please and thank you.